insomnia leads to blog posts which lead to worse insomnia.

Who’s there for you unconditionally?

–God. that’s it. i don’ t have many friends.

You’re single, correct?

–oh yes. always.

Do you want a relationship?

–i would love one but that isn’t up to me.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

–21 and never been kissed wouldn’t you know it?

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?

— see the above question & answer ^

At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?

–not sleeping. i should be. i just finished watching about 4 episodes of skins though. quite nice.

i keep thinking in a british accent now cuz of it.  i wanted to be under the stars tonight..but i was too

chicken to text anyone and see if they wanted to hang out. not that i really have many friends or know

many people at all but there were 2 people i considered texting.

Have you ever been cheated on?

–no.

Are you uncomfortable staring into someones eyes who likes you?

–never been in that situation. if it’s someone i care about and look up to though,

it’s definitely nearly impossible. example: kevin young. eye contact with him is

nearly impossible for me.

Baseball or football?

–basketball. both of the above suck. except the green bay packers.

What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? Who’s it from?

–2 rings. 1, my purity/true love waits ring that forever means i’ll be single and 2, my claudagh ring my sister in law

bought me when i was 13. it’s the most expensive piece of jewelry i own and the only thing anyone has ever bought

me with meaning. i rarely wear it simple because i’m afraid to ruin it.

Are your parents divorced?

–no

Has anyone called you Beautiful before?

–um no one in person no. it’s okay though because really i’m not and i am okay with that.

Were you single on your last birthday?

–yes definitely.

Where did you grow up?

–3 hours northwest of where i live now.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

–nah people are sleeping right now, plus people don’t think about me sooo no and no.

Do you like “good morning” texts?

–only have ever gotten a couple.  didn’t last long though. most of those friendships don’t really last.

Is there someone you want to punch in the face?

–yeah. i had to do a girl scout party at work and i wanted to deck the troop leader for

being a total rich snob who didn’t care that i had a schedule to follow and that it was okay

to show up half an hour late while the rest of the party parents and kids waited around bored, beyond ready to do it.

stupid woman.

Name something you like about winter?

–cold. the silence.

my favorite thing ever is to put on some layers, my ipod and go for a walk outside when it’s absolutely death temperatures.

once you get numb enough you don’t even feel the cold anymore, it’s usually about 10 minutes after you stop shivering and shaking.

that’s the best because then…and only then can you truly appreciate the death of winter.

Have your past mistakes made you wiser?

–yes indeed. never really trusted anyone since katie.

What’s your favorite color?

–black i suppose. i wear a lot of black.

Who do you text the most?

–miki and adam. i don’t text anyone else much at all. oh and my sister i suppose.

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?

–wouldn’t that be nice? then i might look halfway attractive.

Is there someone that you miss being close with?

–more than she will ever know.

Does anyone completely understand you?

–in order to those who might be closest: mary, miki, adam.

Are you into romance?

–i am very romantic in ideal but not in actual belief. for example, i love so many ideas of things but i am smart enough and

cynical enough to know that such things don’t actually exist in real life. example: when you move to a new place, people don’t really want to get to

know you, they’re only polite because it’s a social expectation. you just have to learn to live with that. keep working, keep living, just keep going.

In the last 12 months can you say you truly cared about someone?

–yes. is it reciprocated? not really ever no.

Have you ever held hands with someone in a car?

–lame enough, no. only my sisters when we were little. we all used to hate the dark.

How’s your heart?

–very lonely. i miss having people to hang out with and laugh with.  i miss having friends.

Would you rather get 1, 12, or 24 roses?

–i don’t care if they’re even roses. anything that involves thought behind it i would love.

What is something you like to do when you’re down?

–write. draw. listen to music. sit by the lake. drive.

Are you wearing make up?

–always. have to you know?

Have you ever kissed someone inside a vehicle?

–nope.

Do you believe teenagers can fall in love?

–not really. in lust sure.

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?

–live alone. i’m better off that way

Would you rather get stuck on an island with your ex or a python?

–well i don’t have an ex, but i think i would choose the python anyway.

it would be quick wouldn’t it? suffocation?

Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?

–many.

Will you regret your next kiss?

–considering that won’t ever happen, it’s safe to say that no i won’t.

Where was the last place you slept besides your bed?

–mandi’s couch. and floor.

Whats the background on your computer?

–a graphic with text saying

“the beauty of being in a new city is that no one has expectations of you.

no one has an idea of who you should be.

you can be whoever you want to be.”

Ever been called a bitch?

–yes.

Are you satisfied with your life as of now?

–no.

Did you enjoy your summer?

–summer is coming and i’m sure it will be miserable like most.

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?

–off.

Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead?

–if it’s a guy and a girl and he kisses her forehead cuz they’re in a relationship, then yes.

Do you think relationships are even worth it?

–i’ve been asking myself that question a lot lately.  so far, i’m more lonely than i was after the fiasco with my highschool friends. no one knows though. and no one even reads this so things will just stay that way.

Are you afraid of needles or shots?

–not even remotely. i rather enjoy them both.

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?

–nope. work actually. work and my mom are the only people to ever call me.

How is your eyesight?

–pretty crap actually. i need glasses but i won’t wear them, i wear contacts. if i don’t wear them i’m pretty blind.

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